22nd June 2008

My mother will be pampered today. For her birthday, we (my sister and me) bring my mother to take personal studio shoot. Hope that she likes it. When I saw her so amazingly looking at my aunt personal studio photo on Chinese New Year, I knew that she wanted to have the personal studio photo but she just won’t pamper herself like what I do everytime. She think and think and think non-stop until she really feels that she really needs that thing to be done then she only will pay for it. Since me and my sister was thinking of buying a handphone for her, then might as well just give her the studio photo session as her present for this year birthday.
At first when she heard about her birthday present, she just said that why we need to waste such a money to give her this surprise. But today when I saw her reaching the studio, I can tell that she was really really happy. I am glad that both me and my sister gave her such a present. ^^

My father and my brother also thinks that my mother and me looks alike. What do you think?

Detoxification

I wanted to detoxy my body so badly. I want to reduce my body weight. Now every night I eat less rice and less meat but more vegetables and fruits. I even tried to eat grapefruit before. But I read articles that women that are going to menopause if ate too much grapefruit might prone to have breast/cervical cancer. I can't remember is breast/cervical cancer. So I chose not to eat grapefruit that often. Once a while is ok for me. Last time I used to have nasi lemak as breakfast like 2-3 times a week. But now I ate maybe once in 2-3 weeks. Should say once in a blue moon. Now I eat wholemeal bread for breakfast. Or if I am at mama sayang eating lunch then I will order to eat brown rice. Recently I weight myself on the weighing scale that my sister bought. The lightest of me that I have seen before is 52.3kg. Previously when my boss says I am fat that time, I am 54.8kg fat. OMG!!! We gain weight easily but hard to lose weight. *Sob* I am trying to lose weight until 50kg. Not sure whether is that possible. Don't know whether is it good to reduce until like last time. Because Ah Wah don't like me too skinny. He said now me is the best body line. Except for the tummy. Have to work out the tummy.

Yesterday I went to pharmacy to buy detox tea. I found this Natural clenx tea from NH Detox Slim. OMG!!!! After I tried the tea, I found out the taste quite weird. Then I go through theoackaging again only I know that it is a organic product. Ewww...Today 8 in the morning, my stomach wake me up. It really works. Next time I will post the result of this detoxification.

Life is precious

Since I was small everytime I feels that I am an unlucky girl. WHY??? I also cannot explain why because since small I think a lot before I do or even after I do something. I am scared of everything. I scared get scolded, I scared get bitten, I scared of stitching, scared of bleeding, scared of pain, and the last but not least I am really SCARED of die......

I still can remember fresh in my mind that there is once I was alone in the living area when I was still 7 years old. No one there but my grandma was in the kitchen. I was thinking if in this world there is no god. There is no karma. Then what happens when a person dies. Do they go to heaven or hell or they will go to the bridge where they will drink this soup that makes them forget everything about the past and rebirth again maybe to be human or animal depends on their deeds. I know and everyone knows that I am Christian and I shouldn't think this way. But I really can't help it. If can I really hope that I can think like normal person. Sometimes I tell Ah Wah that I think I really need to see psychiatrist. I am scared that when I die every memory and the things that I do will be gone forever. Althought when you read this you won't feel that it is horrible and something to be afraid of. But I really can't stop myself from thinking this. I have been thinking this thing from 7 years old until now. Until recently when after my wedding reception, the fear has increase more and more. I am really afraid especially during bedtime that is the time when I have most time to think about it. I can't sleep everytime I think of this. Now I am already 23 years old. How many more years that I still have??? When I am typing this I can feel that I am starting to think of that problem again. *Sigh* I do really hope there is an end for this thing.

My Hamster

Its been so long since the last time I update my blog. I feel lazy and have no urge to update my blog at all. ^^

This is the third times my hamster actually gave birth.

For the first time, my hamster gave birth to 5 but only 2 survive. I feel so nervous and scared that I can't take good care of them. Because they seem so small and fragile to me. So I took some time to research on my hamster type and how they breed. Their nature. Some hamster after they breed, we must separate the male and female because the male will bite or eat their children. So for the first day I separated my male hamster away from the children and female. But under my supervision, the male became berserked and wild. It makes weird noise and wanted to bite us. I feel so weird with his behaviour. I put the male back into the female cage because it seems like the male wanted to be with the his family. When I put back the male with the family, everything seems to gone back to normal. The next day when I read the article about my hamster type. I am relieved that I put back the male into the cage to be with the children and wife because my hamster type will not eat his children instead it will help to take care the children when the female is busy. But I made a big mistake, I change their cage which is not advisable because if the parents feel that the cage smells differently then they might become wild and bite their children. Fortunately, my hamster was quite tame. Nothing happens. Within the period where the baby hamster was born until they open their eyes and move around the cage, I observed them everyday. They was born naked (without fur) like salamander. No eyes nothing. Here is the picture of them.

Then slowly their skin turn darker and darker. After that they starts to have tiny little black fur on top of their body and white fur underneath. The next thing is they start to have ears and eyelids. The last was they opened their eyes. ^^ The first batch of baby hamster I gave it to my younger sister, Celina. She wanted so badly. But on the first day under her care, she actually drop the baby hamster to the floor on a human standing heights. The hamster can't move. And she thought the hamster was dead but after a while she can still see the hamster breathing. My sister can't eat and she even cried for 2 days because she feel guilty. But after that the hamster can move and eat but depends only on the front legs. I think the back legs was lame already. Not sure because I haven't seen the baby hamster since I gave it to her.

The second time, my hamster gave birth to 3 and died 1. And now they are healthy and naughty waiting my auntie to adopt them.

This time is the third time. She gave birth to 7 but died 3. So now in the cage I have 4 babies and 2 adults hamsters. Anyone wants to ADOPT HAMSTER FOC??? You can let me know. Because I don't need so many hamster. *Sob*

This is the hamster backside. Doesn't allow me to take photo.

Nah!!!I got her.... Cute mar? This is when she open her eyes for 2 days already.